I don’t know what happened, but I don’t really have anything more to write about. I feel empty. Not in a bad way. It feels more like I’ve taken a good soul dump. I’ve pretty much written about everything that’s been building up and bothering me, and I don’t feel the need to vent.
Maybe it’s because my goals were unrealistic. I think I’m trying to connect and commiserate with you all, to gain some camaraderie, not to feel so alone with my thoughts eating away at me. But there’s only so far you can feel connected with people who stay anonymous and out of reach of reality. And if I’m being totally honest, it was probably also to gain approval. It’s hard to really think deeply about some things that have always confused you, and figure out an answer, and not have anyone to share it with. I mean, it’s not like I can actually do anything with the answer, right? I’m not going to run away and join a neo-frum commune somewhere.
So I shared it online in the hopes of clearing things up for some other people out there. Maybe I thought I’d have an impact on the community that way. Maybe it has.
I hope it has. I hope some of you have at least gotten some comfort knowing that you’re not alone in thinking/feeling like you do, even if it hasn’t impacted anything you actually do.
So I think I’m going to slow down on the writing for now. I have a few half-formed ideas up the pipeline which might pop out sometime soon. But Baal Habos, Gutman Braun, Dan, Ben Kaye, Johnthesavage, Tesyaa, Rants, and everybody else, it was great schmoozing, and I’ll see you around Frumsatire, Dovbear, and all the rest. Ciao.
Oh yeah- if you have any pieces you still want me to post, I’m always happy to do so. And we’re getting 100 hits a day now, so if anybody has another idea for what to do with the blog, post a comment, and let’s discuss it. It seems like a waste to just throw it away.
I was actually thinking of setting up some kind of disenfranchised frum and ex-frum shadchan service. But I’m not sure about the logistics. How would that work exactly? The furthest I’ve gotten is people post profiles and people contact me (or whoever the behind the scenes guy would be) to match them up with profiles they find attractive. We’d have to have some kind of security login of course, so we couldn’t use a blog for this, but I don’t know how we’d spread the word, considering that the only reason we need a service is because everyone’s so hush-hush about this issue. This sounds like a job for Facebook. Anyone?